Who sent the Monster's?

I always heard His voice, I always knew Him, sounds arrogant maybe? but I'm no more special than someone who says they haven't heard His voice.  I just Knew if I didn't listen I wouldn't live to tell anymore stories. I was five and I had so many stories already that would put me to sleep and sometimes keep me awake , they helped me escape and they helped me to breathe.They reminded me who I was ,when the Monster's came.Psalm 139.I didn't always talk to him,I just knew I could whenever I wanted to. Sometimes I would delibritely,not talk to Him.The shame hurt too much.
Shame covered me,it was a thick heavy blanket that would suffocate my heart,and then the Monster's would come.

My first weapon was a sword.His sword.The word of God.He placed it in my heart,John 10:10.It never left,I hid it in there even when my mouth couldn't speak it my heart could.
The truth was now divided. The enemy had a plan,and God had a plan.PROMISE.
My plan of escape came and was executed,but failed, and the Monster's came.The numbness came to soothe,my voice was taken again , but the inward voicing to my King could not be taken.He was stunning then,and more stunning now.He never let me go.PROMISE.

"Sometimes Your lack of word's are Louder than what you could ever say".
  My voice got silenced,But my silence gave me a voice".

There is one thing we need to know,when they come, because they will come, Our King ,Jesus Christ gave us the Master key, it opens and closes every door.
So whatever is lurking in your heart, a whisper that irks you or the whisper that draws you to your King. He has handed you and I the master key.
Matthew 28:18 " ALL authority in heaven and on the earth has been given to me.

Who sent the monster's?.

So here we go,let's talk about Monster's,everyone likes a good ole monster under the bed story!or not.
I'm visualising Monster's Inc, the movie the one my children have watched and enjoyed. Definitely not like the real monster's that I have encountered.I wish they were all like the characters out of the movie,but no they aren't.
So "Who sent the monster's"? A theological debate?No thanks!.
I love the mystery of the not knowing it all. I only no  love it because trying to work it out really made my brain and heart hurt. I had so many "monster's" in my world I didn't know where they began and I ended.
A little snapshot into my story. I felt like in my life I had become my own mystery,I was born into a situation full of it. I felt like a little girl on a mission being determined not to loose my breath,especially to the monster's.


I suddenly woke up in a psychiatric ward locked up , literally. At the age of 24years old , my husband and I were saving madly for our first home, working  and raising our first child who was almost 2years old. My brain and heart snapped,  seemingly the monster's had won!
I knew this was a war, heaven was calling my name. My King had been preparing me for this moment all along , I wasn't hearing voices. I heard the Voice, the one who formed me in my mothers womb and KNEW me. His voice was recognisable , i'd heard it before ,it carried direction and it always carried truth , not my truth but heavens truth. I heard ,"You aren't crazy just sad". I also heard"No -one can hear you.".....(monster's).
So I started writing until I would fall asleep or my hand hurt too much!!! I needed a plan, I needed my own arsonary.
The weapons I chose were ,Mystery,Keys, a sword and Fire.
To be continued.....
Blessings,

Lisa.

Psalm 139.
Lord,you have examined me.
You Know when I sit down and when I get up.
You know where I go and where I lie down.
You know well everything I do.
Lord,even before I say a word,you already know what I am going to say.
You are all around me-in front and in back.
You have put your hand on me.
It is more than I can understand.
Where can I go to get away from your Spirit?
Where can I run from you?
If I go up to the skies,you are there.
If I lie down where the dead are,you are there.
If I rise with the sun in the east, and settle in the west beyond the sea,
even there you would guide me.
With your right hand you would hold me.
I could say,"The darkness will hide me.
The light around me will turn into night".
But even the darkness  is not dark to you
The night is as light as the day.
Darkness and light are the same to you.
You made my whole being.
You formed me in my mother's body.
I praise you because you made me in an amazing and wonderful way.
What you have done is wonderful.
I know this very well.
You saw my bones being formed as I took shape in my mother's boy.
When I was put together there,you saw my body as it was formed.
All the days planned for me were written in-your book before I was one day old.
God your thoughts are precious to me.
They are so many!
If I could count them ,they would be more than all the grains of sand.
When I wake up,
I am still with you.
God I wish you would kill the wicked!
Get away from me you murderers!
These men say evil things about you.
Your enemies use your name thoughtlessly.
Lord,I hate those who hate you.
I hate those who rise up against you.
I feel only hate for them.
They are my enemies.
God examine me and know my heart.
Test my thoughts.
See if there is any bad thing in me.

Lead me in the way you set long ago.

The" Silencer".

One of my obsessions is to hear voices that have yet to be heard.. stories written , songs to be sung ,dreams to be  seen and brought forth. I love to cheerlead others because I know what it feels like when my cheerleaders push,encourage drag haha! sometimes, me. There is nothing like it ,when you know that someone is for you.
Unfortunately we have an enemy and enemies who do not wish to hear our voices or , the stories we carry or the dreams that we carry come forth .  My point of writing this is to be aware of the" Silencer," I had this picture in my mind of this gun , and on the end it,it had the silencer .. I was thinking about my own seasons that I have personally gone through and noticed that that picture of the gun /silencer on the end ,really summed up some of those seasons and places I have been in and through.
The result of not hearing your voice on this planet does this.
"The Silence of a woman or a  man's voice /shatters hearts/and leaves those who have not yet heard them, duller for it...."
With only One spoken word God created everything around us. If He kept silent we wouldn't be here ! Obvious but true.
The enemy continues to use silencers on all of humanity, when we know the truth of who God called us to be, the truth of the Silencer will be put to silence. That voice that says you can't, your not ready, you've got too much to do , your not smart enough, pretty enough , spiritual enough , thin enough, old enough etc...No more enough's!!! Silence the not enough'.

Pick up your silencer upon the enemy(the word of God)to shut his voice.If it isn't his voice then silence it with the truth.
The definition of a gun silencer and its purpose says this;A silencer means a short tube attached to the muzzle of a gun that DEADENS the sound of firing.
It is also designed to be  a  sound suppressor or sound moderator.

I know that God has put many dreams in my heart ,stories to be told, cheerleading to do,and so he has done the same for all his children. It isn't to tease us but it is there to be a voice on this earth to sound out His name in whatever arena we are in and whatever season we are in, we all have a different sound to that voice but if that sound is not heard the Earth and Heaven miss out.....
Blessings,
Lisa.